So... Allen, your party is on the 11th, right? Can you take this post as a RSVP? I'm going to try to make it, I hope.

Would anyone like to do anything in the meantime? I guess I'm just bored...

( once the page of a calendar is turned, it's no more. so tell me then, what was it for? )

I called Tamaki last night to see what was going on with him and he told me he was drinking something similar to pine sol in the host club with Atobe. He was very audibly upset, therefore I trekked my way over there and tried fruitlessly to cheer him up. Before I knew it, Atobe had said something really critical and Tamaki agreed with him, literally sprinting out of the club to go find a certain someone. Atobe and I decided to go take a stroll and before we knew it, some woman who said her name's Ankai or Anko or something came in along with Kabaji and more butlers than I could count. We got distracted, the stroll was postponed, then some criminal or comedian {he calls himself both} came in from the window, ripped Atobe's shirt off, and started talking to me in Spanish. James showed up as well, accidentally scratching my face with a rose aimed at Kabaji. Speaking of Kabaji, he enjoys lifting me up, I think. It was pretty funny, I've never met anyone as strong as he is.

At that point, we were all pretty trashed hungry and ready to leave, so we went to the café and Anko clung to Kabaji I clung to Atobe we all remained trashed Kabaji made Atobe and I some Yorkshire Pudding. He then made something else for Anko, I believe, but I never got to see what it was. Mitarashi dango? Regardless, Kabaji's a great cook, I was thoroughly impressed.

I hope all of them aren't as hung over as I am, though.

I'd like to share a song's lyrics with you all.

( It really makes you think, I promise. You all should think about it. )

( & live for the moment now. )

The café is just as it has always been. I don't know why I assumed it would be any different, things don't change in a mere month's time. Or do they?

Kira Izuru and Professor ShinRa decorated some cookies and gave them to me. I've decided to hold them for special occasions and when I'm really, really hungry so that I can savor them even more; things baked from the heart taste so much better and are so much more 'worth it' than generic packaged and processed food. I mention this because in the café yesterday, I met a guy named Ling. We were talking a bit and he said he was hungry, so I offered him one of the cookies and we ate them together. I should give Kira positive feedback, they are indeed tasty.

As I was leaving, Kayura came in and talked to me. She would like me to be one of her bridesmaids! I'm positively thrilled. It's certainly an honor. I am sure the wedding is going to be an amazing event, I can't wait.

Little by little, things are going back to normal. My classes are once again enjoyable.

There's still that one thing I can do nothing about.

( It's even more a part of your life now that you can't touch it. )

Things base and vile, holding no quantity,
Love can transpose to form and dignity.
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.

I'm back.

Mexico was necessary if not a bit trite. I suppose Mexico itself wasn't, but running away was.

I've been to three of my classes already today. It feels strange. Being back here, being in new classes... really strange.

Hello, new semester. Please watch over me kindly.

It's not so quiet anymore.

I'm not quite sure how it happened, but somehow I ended up running away getting kidnapped, Mr. Maito and I both at the same time. I was really growing tired of locking myself in my room, I believe it had been two weeks, I can't keep track of time anymore. He showed up in my room, talked about his wedding a little, and then... well, needless to say, we aren't in Cross anymore.

He and I, along with Hyuuga Neji, are currently on a bus to Mexico. It has smelled like moth balls for six hours and I forgot to bring my flat iron and hairspray. I guess I'll have to pawn my clothes for replicas in Mexico City. Not really.

We're surrounded by nuns, each smellier {of moth balls} than the next, and we're cramped into a tight space. At least it's a really cheap ride.

Oh, and I'm updating via my Sidekick. I love T-Mobile, don't you?

I never knew a university dorm complex could be so quiet.

It's too quiet.

Haruhi, Allen, or anyone else this may concern -- Tomorrow, right? That's when you're arriving home from Europe? Are you coming back as well, Tamaki?

( a little more personal. )

Mr. Maito, if you're free within the next few days, I'd love to meet with you. You're the first person I'll be seeing in a while. Do you have any tequila, by any chance?

I haven't updated in a few days, but nothing's changed -- I still can't think of anything to say.

Generic update to let people know I'm alive.

... It's morning again.

( & they color the eyes of your former lovers; hers were green like July, except when she cried they were red )

I hate myself sometimes for being ridiculous.

Well...

I'm back at Cross. I know, I know -- I told nobody I was leaving. I'm sorry if I worried anyone, though it was only a week so I'm sure no one took any notice.

I went to visit the family and stayed there through New Year's Eve and all events following.

It was a generic meeting, you know, just hanging out with the parents I hadn't seen since October and random people in Konoha city. You guys are going to have to fill me in on what I missed, I think. I'm sure the world has simply flown by me.

So today I...

Oh, yes. That's right.

And, umm... Merry Christmas, everyone.

( Everything it seems I like's a little bit stronger, a little bit thicker, a little bit harmful for me... )

December 24th, 9PM Eastern Standard Time. From here on in, I shoot without a script. See if anything comes of it instead of my old shit. First shot...

I can't give anything out in person anymore. Time is running out and I've resorted to putting the gifts outside everyone's dorms. I put Mr. Maito's gift outside his office. I hope people like their gifts anyway. I've snapped pictures of the gifts outside the dorms for sentimental value. Everything looks best during the holiday season.

This morning, I walked to Cross Bar and took some pictures of the outside of it as well as people stumbling out. My experiences with that place have been no less than insane, therefore I figured taking still shots of it is more than appropriate.

I guess I could show up at the café later on tonight for the sake of taking more pictures. I'll keep to myself. I'll keep out of your way.

I keep throwing "he deserved it" and "he didn't deserve it" back and forth in my hands.

( The snow's coming down, I'm watching it fall, watching the people around... )

When you're selfless you're so hard not to adore
When you're selfish, I just love you even more

Does anyone at all know where Kira Izuru is right now... or his phone number or something? I want to give him a Christmas gift but he's not in his room. Trust me, I knocked on the door a lot.

And the last few places I saw him, uh. Yeah, he's not at any of those places anymore.

...Anyway, dinner with Natsuo is tonight! I can't wait.

( Hold on, there's something you should hear. It isn't much, but it took all year... )

I wasn't around last night because I was finishing up some last minute Christmas shopping. I wrapped it all up and I think it's safe to say I'm done! Whew. Is there anyone I'm friends with who is going to be going home for Christmas? If so, please comment here so I can give you your gift before you leave. I'm going to be staying through the 27th and then flying home through New Year's because my parents haven't seen me since that incident in October and miss me.

Natsuo, I went ahead and made the reservations at Il Toscano for Wednesday. Apparently we got the last table. Also, I found out that a guy named Il Toscano doesn't go to this school after all! The guy's name is Julius Il Forte, apparently. Still, it would have been funny if that guy owned a restaurant...

Oh, and good luck to anyone going on Mr. Brenner's trip to Europe! I'm sure you'll have a wonderful time. Haruhi, I really hope your leg is better by then.

Speaking of legs, mine is like... 90% healed. I'm really glad about that. The "NIGHT OF CRAZY" becomes even more and more ridiculous in my mind as the days go by.

Soubi, I'd like to speak to you about something Cross Radio-related after the new year. I'm not sure why I'm writing this here, but maybe it's so I won't forget.

OH YEAH. Speaking of Cross Radio!

I'm actually set to DJ on New Year's Eve. It's probably the most awesome time to DJ ever, but I'm going to have to miss it because I'll be back home. I need someone to spin for me that night, anyone up for it?

I think I've said enough in this post. Time for a macchiato.

( That damn meme. )

The Winter Ball was tonight.

I still have to do my weekly set at Cross Radio later, but I'm all done with my set at the ball and I got pretty good feedback on the tunes I spun. That's really all I tried to accomplish and I did just that, so I'd say the night was a success. Successful if not uneventful. At its best, it was high energy and a great time had between friends. At its worse, it was awkwardness and people screaming about kissing and jealousy issues. I'm glad I had no part of that and I really wasn't unhappy at all the entire night. I even tried to give some of my energy to others because I seemed to have an overabundance of it.

Some individual walked up to me and said "Hey sexy miss" before dragging me off, spinning me around really fast around 20 times, then lifting me up. Tamaki tried to save me and they got into an argument and eventually I got put back down because the Time Warp started and the guy got distracted. He came back after the song but by that time, Itachi had come over and told him off. That was a pretty weird experience, I'm not sure who that guy was.

Everyone's set was great, Natsuo and I grooved especially to Allen's first song. I thought I'd be tired out by the end of the night but I really wasn't, I was disappointed when it ended. Natsuo and I got a ride back to the café in Tamaki's limo, it's always interesting to sit in that vehicle. We stayed in the café for a while, I ordered some pizza and ate it, now I'm here to change out of my dress and then I'm off to make my broadcast.

Natsuo is very observant; he can remember exactly what everyone looks like, acts like, and he's unbelievable at reading people. I'm not sure where he learned such a great life skill, but it astounds me to be around him because it's so hard to hide things. Even when he doesn't outwardly announce he knows something, I get the feeling that he does and it's kind of crazy. Like when he surprises me by automatically knowing the second my mood drops and somehow knowing exactly how to cheer me up. I'd write it off as me being easy to read, but it's not just me that he reads so well.

Overall, I really enjoy DJing and I hope to do some more of it in the future. It was a good experience and I'm glad I got a job at Cross Radio.

( 'Cause she's pretty in pink with the heart of 16. )

( Survey, Princess style. For lack of a better place to put it. )